Saturday, August 18, 2012

Karma and Guilt

Have you ever used the phrase, "what goes around, comes around" ; or said "karma is a bitch"  to soothe yourself from your anger at someone. It usually works too, believing that karma will deliver the justice you so desperately need to believe will occur somewhere in the future.


  [kahr-muh] noun
Hinduism, Buddhism action, seen as bringing upon oneselfinevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in areincarnation: in Hinduism one of the means of reachingBrahman. Compare bhakti def. 1 jnana.
Theosophy the cosmic principle according to which eachperson is rewarded or punished in one incarnation accordingto that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.
fate; destiny. predestination, predetermination,lot, kismet.
the good or bad emanations felt to be generated bysomeone or something: Lets get out of here. This place has badkarma.

We usually use those phrases when someone has hurt us deeply or angered us beyond rage. Sometimes we remember that karma can be positive as well, there are those rare few that truly are amazing, extraordinary individuals that constantly inspire us to be better, do better. But more often we curse someone with karma.

I have done it, a lot. 

What if you were actually there to see it manifest in real time? Have you really thought about how you would feel to see someone suffer as you felt you had suffered? What if...

There is no more what if for me. I am watching it unfold right in front of my eyes, in real time, times two. Yes, that's right, times two. Two different people that hurt me deeply in my lifetime are experiencing their "karma" at the same time, at opposite ends of North America. Radically different for each of them, but tragic nonetheless. I am watching it happen in real time. Yes, I feel guilty. Yes, I feel sad. Yes, I feel responsible.

I am not saying it was my "karma curse" that brought about their current state of tragedies, I am not that powerful, no where near that powerful, but did my wishing it aid in its eventual occurrence? An occurrence that for all reasonable purposes should not occur until their next life or even the one after? And what did I do in this life or a former one to have been karma cursed to experience and watch their tragedies unfold? 

These people are experiencing LIFE ALTERING changes. Not a simple heartbreak or divorce like you would expect (not that either of those experiences are simple or easy) BUT life altering changes that effect them, their health, their families, and their futures. One of them if doubly karma cursed actually and I, quite frankly, wouldn't mind the lesser of the curses to play out, but combined with the other, it is harsh. drastically and dramatically harsh. 

How do you take back what you wished for so long ago and not so long ago? Can you take it back once you wish it? Does it matter if you could take it back? 

Everyone is responsible for their own behavior, actions and decisions. They alone are accountable as I am accountable for my behavior, actions and decisions. But in the end it is all connected. WE are all connected. 

Try to wrap your head around that one...I am still working on it.